Wednesday, October 01, 2014

Mind Sauce at 10pm

A blog to fill the void.

The Morning Show contest is over. I have recorded my 300th episode and have uploaded it. Thanks to everyone who listen and who entered. It means the world to me that you keep coming back to the podcast and to here, and still care about what I have to say to the world. I hope I entertain you for the brief periods that I am reaching out to you with these things.

I have been emerging from my long summer of woe and I am now creating in the vaccuum again. I know in the end I can emerge next year with new books and a few appearances here and there. But once again it feels lonely. Also coupled with the fact that the wife is gone out of town for the last few and the next few weeks for job training. Man this new company is thorough! And I was told that if she was promoted again to the store manager position that they train them in Arkansas for 12 weeks. Yikes. All for the greater good.

The kids are doing great and Scott seems to be improving with his writing. Cooperation, not so much. Potty training is still an issue. James meanwhile is kicking ass at everything. He says 5-6 word sentances now and its a weird thing to have a kid around who talks and interacts. I'm glad I have that now, even though at times it can be too much. He is so genuinely curious and creative. He creates things on my walls in crayon. Yippie.

All I have before me are plans. Various notes and quick napkin sketches I've made during my "down time" for when I knew I would emerge from the depression cave and into the productive cave. It is quite overwhelming. BUT- a good feeling, to know that I didn't lose the idea that I WOULD emerge. I WOULD come back to it all. I dabbled here and there with things, but nowhere near my usual schedule. I still am not up to 100%. This new life has me adjusting things all over. But I am coping. I'm still in this race.

The dieting is going well. I am now on solid water only and loving it. For a long time I was putting these KoolAid singles packets in every bottle. But today I downed 4 things of water. I'm trying out some various hot teas as well. I'm starting daily treadmill work. Dropping 30 pounds in 3 months is a solid start. But I had the geniune health scare this week and my dizziness continues. Its not so bad today though. I am working on getting my blood pressure numbers back to normal range. It will be an ongoing battle, one I am determined to win.

I got the 2015 and beyond plans written down and a personal goal timeline to do. Off to do it. Thanks for caring folks. I'll be back!

Cheers, T



Sunday, September 28, 2014

Disconnected...

Hey all. Its been a so-so week. Not nearly as productive as I wanted it to be. I only worked maybe one or two days on cards and coloring. For the most part I have been nursing my health. There's something wrong with me and I am not sure what it is. For a while now, I've had these slight "light-headed/dizzy spells." They come and go in a mere second and they sort of knock me off slightly, enough that I can get ill. Vertigo to a sense, but it has caused many other things to me such as much worry and even anxiety attacks. I have been actually suffering anxiety attacks when I am alone. Alone at the night job and alone at home while the wife is away. Mostly fear that there is something greater wrong with me and I am alone with the kids. But that is an irrational fear.

I want you to know that I greatly despise doctors. I know way too many people who have been misdiagnosed and even lost their lives at points because of it. However I do feel it is necessary to get your engines checked from time to time. Especially since my age has got to the point where yearly checkups might be a good idea. I wanted to avoid it while I was transitioning from morbid obesity down to being just a simple fat guy. I've went from 373 pounds to 343 pounds in three months. I've quit soda and have made better decisions as to my eating habits. Daily fruits, etc. But still, this problem remains. I still feel slightly "off." Like when you hear a song you've heard a million times but theres a guitar part missing, or the drum beat is 1/4th a second off all the sudden. Just disconnected. Its hard to explain. I'm having daily dizzy spells and even driving is becoming a problem. I went to the store today feeling really good and energetic, only to return sick and lightheaded from motion sickness. I've suffered motion sickness all my life, but for some reason it is increasing. I don't like it at all. I sometimes think it might be my body withdrawl from caffeine and all the other crap I am not partaking in so much anymore. Is that possible? I don't know. I have 36 years of bad habits I am overcoming, so I am sure I will be punished in some way... if I already haven't done too much damage to the one valuable and irreplaceable thing I have in this life: My body.

So I went to the doctor this last Friday and they took 4 vials of blood:


Needles freak me out and I didn't dare look at it, but toughed it out I did. FOUR VIALS!!! It took forever it seemed, but I got through it. They ruled out the major worries right away like heart problems, blood sugar, etc. Blood pressure was high but in the normal range. If I continued on my destructive path with food, I would likely get worse, stats-wise. But I have been changing all of that. I should know the results on Monday... IF they found anything. I doubt they will. The problem is in my head. Something with my perceptions or equilibrium. A CAT scan would be a good idea if I could get one. But to rule out anything major happening to me is helping with the anxiety. But it remains that I just feel wrong. Something is off and I can feel it. Its fucking with my world. I can make myself very dizzy doing simple things like moving my head too much. I have learned to sort of move my head with my body, like Michael Keaton in BATMAN. If I don't think about it, I can distract myself from the issues. Last night I had some friends over and we had some beers. I went slow and enjoyed myself. It seemed the more I had fun and just talked, the more I felt "normal." This thing, whatever it is, has taken over my life to some degree and I want it to be fixed.

So I am going to wait for my results this week and meanwhile just try to stay busy and distracted. Wish me luck. I wish I could describe this better, but I cannot. I just know I am not right. Hopefully I get well soon... whatever that will take.

I did finish a commission this week. It was for a pet owner who lost a dog recently. It is meant to be a holiday present. Here it is: 


Touching on the whole Itunes/U2 thing that I have ranted endlessly about on my PODCAST - I was pleased to see that the U2 album has been getting good reviews and also all U2 albums have been increasing in sales via digital and physical media. It seems the album got younger kids checking out their back catalog and thats a great thing! So I declare the album a complete win over the naysayers. I've listened to it several times and its fast approaching my favorite release of 2014 so far. But there's a couple months to go and some major albums coming.. like Foo Fighters and um, that one band... something Floyd that is Pink or something... Also Radiohead's Thom Yorke just released an album via free methods too. I gotta get that and dissect it. What an exciting time for my favorite bands!

I am fast approaching episode #300 of my MORNING SHOW PODCAST - You still have time to enter my contest to win a free copy of my 120 page full color ARTBOOK! Simply email me a question to read live on the show BY CLICKING HERE and that enters you into a drawing. Enter NOW for your chance! Its quite likely I will be recording the new episode sometime this week. So HURRY!

It appears I might be doing another live appearance somewhere in Lansing before the end of the year. I'll let you folks know as soon as details are set it stone. Probably sometime late Oct/early Nov. Stay tuned.

Those local to me who want some of my art prints can hit up THE RECORD LOUNGE in East Lansing and score some, and some killer vinyl!! They are allowing me to set up the prints there in their shop and people are digging them. So stop in if you are in East Lansing area and get my shit! Many of those prints will not be reprinted anymore, so get em while they last!!

I recently have started to recollect some CDs as well. It seems me getting rid of physical media made me miss them greatly. Luckily, Cds are dirt cheap right now so when I have a spare $5-10, I toss some to some albums. Hey, its better than spending it on fast food! I need to get a CD player that will work with my receiver though.

I suppose thats all I have for the moment. I hope you all have a good week. Hopefully I get good news about my health soon. I'll keep you all posted if I learn anything.

Much Love,  T

Monday, September 22, 2014

Lonely Week 3 - Kickin' Butt All Over!

Hey everyone! Back again. Been a busy week. Lots of working, late nights, changing sleep patters over and back again, but I'm good. I've been working on coloring for Starslam and the new Star Wars card set stuff. Busy all around and thats great! I also finished a small commission I decided to take on. I'm not currently doing many commissions but I accepted this one because it was for an owner of a recently deceased pet. I can relate and so it had to be done.

Some things I am excited about:

I am officially down 30 pounds now. I weighed in today and it was a genuine surprise! It feels good and I am going good on my path. I have now been free of soda at home for three months and drinking a ton of water. Eating lots of fruit at home as well. I need to do more veggies and soups from now on and start a walking regimine, but so far these minor changes in my diet have been working quite well. Imagine what would be happening if I went hardcore! Oh well. I'm going the extreme baby step route. Seems to work great for me.

I scored the Walgreens exclusive Boba Fett figure. I never really buy myself much anymore, but I got an affection for Boba Fett. So when I learned of this exclusive figure I decided to treat myself. They are quite beautiful!


Pink Floyd officially announced the release date for their new (and most likely their last) album, "The Endless River." It is coming November 10th. It mostly is 99% instrumental music, most of which was recorded for the "Division Bell" sessions in 1994. So it will feature keyboardist Rick Wright (who died in 2008), along with new material recorded by Dave and Nick. Roger Waters is not involved. Its a nice treat for a long time fan like me. A great swan song? We shall see. 


In other exciting music news (for me anyway), I got a surprise U2 album this week... and for FREE! I'm sure you all have heard about it by now. 


Of course, the loud bitchings of people "forced" to own the album created a large stink. But all they had to do was swipe/delete/problem solved. Meanwhile I am loving every track. So far, I'd rank it in my top 5 releases of the year in fact. What can I say? I am a fan and it was a definate treat. Sorry so many people feel otherwise. But I've ranted about this enough on my podcast recently that I won't get into it... (sigh)

Speaking of my Idiothead Morning Show Podcast (which you can subscribe to via Itunes), I am having a contest for episode #300. I am likely going to be recording it within the next two weeks. I am asking people to EMAIL ME A QUESTION RIGHT HERE to read on the show. And every person that asks a question gets entered into a drawing. And at the end of the show recording, I will draw a name and that person will win a copy of my 2014 ARTBOOK! "CAPTAIN'S LOG" Its called! So if you want a chance to win a free book, and get your question read live on the air, simply EMAIL ME A QUESTION!!! It can be about my work, my opinions on things in the world, advice, music, movies, etc. Anything really. Just ask anything and I will answer and you get an opportunity to win. HURRY! I will be recording episode #300 soon!!!

Lastly, wife is gone to Detroit for more training so I am working alone this week. She's coming back on thursday and we'll have Saturday night off together. Looking forward to it as we haven't seen each other much these last couple weeks. Gets lonely! Anyway folks, thanks for reading. Go out into the world and kick some ass!

Cheers, T

Monday, September 15, 2014

Lonely Week pt 2 (Getting Back in Gear)

Hey folks. So begins week #2 of the wife being gone and I'm the main man in the house. I've spent most of my weekend working the day job, sleeping when I can and taking care of poor little Scotty, who battled the flu. I had a bad stomach virus on Friday/Saturday as well. I also spent times keeping the house clean, and cleaning up surprise messes like this:


Yeah, some laundry detergent spilled. Great!

I'm getting excited for the holiday season. So much so that I already decorated the house a bit for Halloween. James helped out too...


I forgot to mention that I did a show flyer for my pal Corey's band NAGAZI. You can see them at Rubbles in Mt. Pleasant coming up this Sept. 20th. 


But finally after weeks and weeks of domestic bliss, I am getting back into the swing of production. No more am I doing minor things about once a week. I am kinda getting back into a groove. It feels nice. This week I dropped some flat colors on Starslam for the eventual Kickstarter. No timetable on that, but its coming. I gotta say, I re-looked over the pages and it really came together quite nicely. I'm very proud of the story! So I got about 70 pages to color there and then recolor the first 70 pages. Then letter the last 70 and its all done after formatting. So, its by no means done. But on its way.

I've also been able to do some sketch cards here and there. I showed some of my Return of the Jedi 30th Anniversary card set cards a while back but I didn't show off the prop close ups of the cut outs of Ewok fur and Jabba's Sail Barge pieces I got to draw on. Here ya go:



I finished one MARVEL CARD set last week. (sorry I cannot show pics of those yet) And this week, I got my next assignment...


Spoilers of things to come!!!

Anyway, I'm on another Star Wars set, then two more Marvel Sets after that. I signed all the contracts today in fact. We're rolling. So HOPEFULLY somewhere in there, I can keep up with my shit too. I'll likely do some days on cards, some on writing, some on coloring. The next three months I hope are filled with HEAVY PRODUCTION out of me. And we'll see what I emerge with come January. I've got no shows till next summer most likely, so the focus is all on getting my shit done and off my TO DO list... which is massive and intimidating. I also have minor plans for side projects/books to do in-between all of this. I like a lot of pots on my stove, folks. I think with as crazy as 2014 has been for me personally, you'll see an immediate explosion from me in 2015. Sexy time explosion. Lets hope I can emerge triumphant.

Lately, I have begun to feel like my old self again. Reconnecting. Making new plans. Taking care of shitty business. And while life keeps throwing more shit my way, more bills and surprise expenses...etc, I yell back loud at the universe to say I'm still standing here. Keep throwing it at me. Give me what you got!!! You can't take me down, fuckers!

Anyway, no timetable. No limitations. No grand promises. Lets just get to work.

Cheers, T

Tuesday, September 09, 2014

Lonely Week pt 1

Well the wife started training in Detroit for the new job, meaning she is gone there Mon-Friday. She's staying with her parents near there. They are very thrilled to have her. So much so, they installed cable in the second bedroom so she could watch TV! I guess after 15 years alone, they took some joy in having their daughter come back for a bit. Its only for 6 weeks, but I am glad they are spending time together. Meanwhile, I'm an hour and a half West, keeping the house together. I get Scott on the bus, play with James, do house errands and work and do Scotts homework with him when he returns. I get the kids to bed and then fight sleep to get work done.

Actually I am behind on a card set that is due on Monday. I should be working on it now but I am avoiding it by posting a blog. Aren't you lucky? :)

I watched Football on our bedroom TV (now in the living room... grrrrr...don't get me started) and watched some nice surprise upsets. Then the Lions played on Monday, kicking ass. They look really good and Stafford is looking quite mature and comfortable in his QB position. I hope it stays that way.

Today at the Iphone announcement, they dropped the major bomb, a surprise U2 album!


I've given it three listens and already reviewed it on the Morning Show Podcast if you care to know. Its a solid album and I like it better than the last one from 2009. Evidence leads me to believe there is more music to come, and this is part one of a two part album series from them. We'll see. Its just great to get a nice surprise of new music from my favorite bands this year. From U2 to the upcoming Pink Floyd. Its a bad year for me personally, but a GREAT year for my music!! 

Other things on my radar is the upcoming Amanda Fucking Palmer book, The Art of Asking.


I love her music and her blog/social media posts. And I was inspired by her continued success with crowd funding. All creative fields are sort of in flux with today's technology. And I know she's passionate about finding ways to LET PEOPLE fund her work. I look forward to reading this to maybe get some ideas myself. I sure could use them to find a larger reach. Once I get my personal ducks in a row, I need to start to tackle the mountain of delayed workload before me. And when I do, I need to find ways to ensure that I can get it out to people and make the most I can off of it. Because creation is not just my life blood, it is my job. And a Job has to bring something in to keep it afloat. I've done okay, but I know I can do better. The passion is there, but I need to refine the approach to business. I'll get on that soon. But first, more important things like Health, Finances and Family take first dibs.

And I gotta keep working on this shit because this week I accepted three more sketch card gigs. Big sets, BIG properties. Huge. Just when I thought I was out, they pulled me back in! Thats okay. It all goes to the big melting pot of experience, funds and (most importantly) fun!!

 Tomorrow is my son James T's 2nd bday. We plan to celebrate probably Saturday by taking the kids out to a bouncy playground called "Jumping Jacks." Should be neat. He's doing great. Lots of interactivity and talking. And Scott is reaching out with me and doing actual homework! He's improving too. Its great to see. I'm proud of both of them.

Anyway, I guess I'm burnin' daylight here. I gotta get these sketch cards done and out the door or else my editor will slice my balls off. Off to look up more Marvel reference I go!

Cheers, T


Friday, September 05, 2014

PODCAST CONTEST!


By now most of you know I run a podcast called the IDIOTHEAD MORNING SHOW. Its 15-25 minutes about 3-5 times weekly that you can stream for free right HERE or better yet, Subscribe via Itunes right HERE - I'm at episode #280 after going for almost two years. Coming up quickly, I will be celebrating my 300th episode! So I wanted to do something special. I am having a contest!!

Simply EMAIL ME A QUESTION that I can read and answer live on the show. It can be about my comics, my writing, advice, general interests, music, movies, whatever! Anything! Just ask any question. I will read each one live. Then at the end of the show, I will collect all the names and draw a name. The winner will recieve a FREE SKETCHED IN COPY of my 20th ANNIVERSARY ARTBOOK pictured here:


So either email me a question HERE or Facebook message me a question HERE and you are officially entered into the contest. I will be recording episode #300 within the next couple weeks or so, so there is time. However, don't wait and forget. Enter NOW while you are looking at this. Its a free shot at winning my 120 page full color with a sketch inside ARTBOOK!

If you don't enter, thats cool. But at least subscribe to the podcsat via Itunes HERE - Its free, and a great supplement to the blog here. I expand on many thoughts I have here and drop exclusive inside news all the time. Rants, raves, lists, etc. I try my hardest to be entertaining. People seem to enjoy it and the downloads are constant. I'd like it to continue and get more people listening and involved. Wanna help? Go to Itunes and subscribe. Also write a review for the podcast on there. It helps the rankings and gets sponsors interested in possibly looking at it. That helps fund what I'm doing. I appreciate it.

Anyway folks, ENTER THE CONTEST! ENTER TO WIN A FREE BOOK! Hit me with the questions and provide content for the big #300th episode!

And a great thanks to all who always listen each week. I appreciate you letting me into your lives for 20-25 minutes a day. Cheers! (Peace and Love!)

T

Wednesday, September 03, 2014

AVGN Interview is Live!

Hey folks! My ANGRY VIDEO GAME NERD interview with Kevin Finn and James Rolfe (The "Nerd") is up and live! Check out the audio right HERE - and check out the write up at Bigfanboy.com right HERE - Thanks to Kevin and James for the interview, thanks to Jasmine the PR Rep for setting it all up and mega-thanks to Mark Walters of Bigfanboy.com for letting me do it. It was a great thrill to talk to those guys. I am a massive AVGN fan and have been for years. It was a nice thing for me to do.

I've seen the flick and gave a review on my IDIOTHEAD MORNING SHOW PODCAST. Overall, I'd say for a fan funded film, it was really a treat. The boys have definitely grown as filmmakers and they should be damn proud. If I had any criticism, I'd say that the flick could have been trimmed by about 20-25 minutes and the flow woulda been a bit smoother. Some scenes coulda done with maybe another take or two. But I know the shoot itself was a plagued one and I'm sure they recognize some of the things they wish they coulda had time to get to. The effects are Troma-style with a modern flair and done with loving care. The film looks professionally shot and its filled with all sorts of AVGN world related cameos and fun bits. There's tons to take in. Overall, I'd give the film a solid B, but an astounding A+++++ for the guys' herculean efforts to take a completely fan-funded script and delivering a great looking product. A lot of history and love went into this flick and everyone should see it. You can rent or buy it on VOD right HERE

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In other news, a couple days before football season begins, my beloved 42" TV shit the bed. Here's a pic of the day we got it:

From this blog - Dec. 2007
It was an INSIGNIA, so a generic Best Buy brand. I'm actually surprised it lasted this long! We got a 25" we moved from the bedroom to the Living room so I won't miss a game. But still, kinda sucks. We'll get a new one for Xmas I am sure. Just gotta get some bills out of the way. Just sucks cause last week we had a surprise $600 car repair too. We're strapped as it is! UGH! Oh well. 2014 has been a shitty year for us, why not add to the pile eh? I'm afraid to go around the corner. Jesus whats next! HA! Ya gotta laugh after a while, I swear.

(EDIT -- Its funny, and to tie it into AVGN a bit... it died in the middle of my son and I playing NES "JAWS" on the Retron 3 with it! Like the game was so shitty, it broke my damn TV!)

It ain't all bad right now. The wife starts orientation for her new job today. We budgeted her new job's income and we got a financial plan to get back to where we were at the beginning of the year before all these medical bills and unfortunate set backs nailed us down a bit. By January or so, we'll be back to normal somewhat. My night job helps too. I haven't taken on any commissions really, due to my self-imposed break, but thats fine. I've accepted minor gigs here and there, but nothing big. I'm not really out there looking like I used to.

Scott started Kindergarten yesterday and seems to be enjoying it. I gotta go out today and get him some new jeans. He's grown out of the ones we bought this year already! Growth spurt I guess. James is talking up a lot! Its great to see his progress! During his nap time today, I plan to get back to work now that I will get a daily rhythm. I cleaned up my office last night and recorded a ton of new podcasts I've been writing material for. I'm crossing minor things off my TO DO list, and thats great!! So its hard to get down about things like a car repair or a broken TV when so much else seems to be going right. I'm damn lucky! I don't have to worry about things like finding clean drinking water or anything, so my "problems" seem real goddamn minor in perspective.

Anyway, we're rockin' and rollin.' Check out the AVGN interviews I posted above and buy the movie VOD or on Blu-ray when it comes out. Support indie talent! Believe me, and I can relate, indie folks appreciate the support!

Have a good week, Peace and Love!! --- T